Life in the Fast Lane

life as a senior is a lot crazier than it seems. When you're a lower class man,you look up at the seniors and think, "Oh,how i wish i could be them, Barley any classes, partying all the time, and just get to live the easy life..." oh boy did i get an awakening at the beginning of this school year. Full schedule, i may get little homework, but when i do, it's hard, not enough time on the weekends to party, work, responsibilities, do i have enough credits? cap and gown. Do i want a class ring? college applications. Do i even want to go to college? If so which one? Long story short... it's not as easy as it looks. My life has been so busy, i feel like i have no time to myself. It seems like all i do is wake up, go to school, dance, do homework, dance some more, work, and then sleep. No time for a social life, that's for sure. However, it's been a full semester of my senior year, and looking back, i wouldn't change a thing. Sure it's been crazy, and sure its brought a lot of stress, but i would've missed out on so many opportunities, not have any of the experiences that I've had. Sometimes it's good to have a hectic life because then you can't say that you did nothing with your life. You can say, I did all i could do, and still want to do more. We are who we are because of what we do and what we experience. And what it is to say, "I've lived my life in the fast lane."

What happens to you makes you who you are:)

in the last couple of months a lot has happened. I have been through so much, but each thing has made me stronger. I spent my spring break doing the same thing everyday, that consisted of sleeping in my RV out front of my house with my best friend:) every night.. haha! Watching good, uplifting movies..(one of which was watched over, and over, and over again:)haha) Getting as tan (well, burned..) as much as we could, and last, but definitely not least, going to the temple and doing baptisms for the dead every night that the temple was open. It was such a great experience. being in the temple is such a great feeling because you know without a shadow of a doubt that you are in the right place, and that you are doing what it takes to be able to gain the blessings of the temple. After that amazing spring break, school started again :( same old school, same crazy days, until two weeks ago, this sweet little boy named Ethan Ellsworth suffered and aneurysm in his brain stem. This little boy was the funniest, sweetest funnest, most outgoing boy you'd ever meet. He fought for his life but nothing got better, he passed away on March 26, 2011. Everyone was broken hearted and had a hard time with the passing of this little boy. The funeral was held on March 30, 2011 and it was such a beautiful service that was held in remembrance of Ethan. But while going through this i was able to have the comforting feeling of knowing that he went straight the Celestial kingdom. And he will always be with us comforting us and watching over us, and because of this we have all grown stronger, and closer together. And with that happening i was happy to have listened to a general authority talk about how the only premature death is that of whom is not prepared to meet god. and it helped me realize that it wasn't premature, it was what he came here to do. These past two days have been General conference and each and every talk has been truly inspiring. I love this church and the blessings and knowledge that come with it. WE may go through hard times and think that we may never get through them, but we will, and we will come out of them stronger than we were before:)

Reflect On Eternity

so there was a fireside tonight on dating and it was alot of fun and answered alot of questions i have had on dating because i have never really fully understood the boundaries on dating and while the "Panel" was answering questions they all up leading to the same thing, eternity. "Should you date someone who is not LDS?" "It's not a sin but who you date is who you marry and you want to marry someone with the same standards as you to be sealed for all eternity." "Is it a sin to kiss before you are thinking of marriage?" "No, it is not a sin, you just have to set boundaries because kissing sets an emotional bond that leads to another thing and you don't want to lower your standards because you want to always have the goal of eternity set in sight." all the questions were answered pretty much the same and i really made me realize, these boundaries aren't to torture us they are to help us. they are to guide us in a direction we want to go and helps us to stay on the path of righteousness. they all pertain to different areas of dating but they all protect the same thing. D&C 131:1-4 talks about how in the celestial kingdom there are three degrees of glory and in order to recieve the highest degree you must enter into into the new and everlasting covenant of marriage. That is why i will strive for nothing less than a temple marriage. It is were i can be sealed to my family for time and all eternity. my standards are high and i know it's going to be tough to live by them but if it were easy, it wouldn't be worth it.

The Temple

i love the Temple:) going there makes me so happy...it makes me feel so good and refreshed in a way. this Friday me, Ellen, and Niki went to the temple to do baptisms and it was such a great experience. that day wasn't the best day and going to the temple made the whole day better. whenever i go to the temple its always the highlight of my day because the world around me is so hectic and crazy and you can't get away from anything, bad things are all around you all the time, tempting you and making you think that they are okay but stepping into the temple is as if all that has gone away. like the rush of the world has slowed down and all that matters is what you are doing right here right now because you are in the right place at the right time:) i feel no stress when entering the temple. i feel so safe. while i was waiting to the baptisms i was reading the scriptures. and recently i have been feeling rather confused, and while reading i had a feeling to go to D&C section 108, and once i read that it was like a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders. i knew right then that the spirit was with me and told me to go there to answer my prayers. it was such an amazing experience and I'm so happy we went. it made a great ending to a not so great day.:)